It has been so long since I’ve written a blog here. I’m not even sure if I know how to write anymore…hehe. Many events and changes has happened and mainly too many to name. Most recent update: By God’s grace, I have graduated nursing! I am barely studying for the boards, but I know that I must. And I will, that is, starting tomorrow!
As much as there were many changes, regrets, challenges, new experiences, and opportunities presented, there is one constant in my life and that is Jesus. His unconditional love never fails. I love Romans 8:38 “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord”.
Things I must, must, must do: BE faithful, Obey, and Trust in HIM.
I’ve been currently hooked on “Little House on the Prairie.” I don’t know why but maybe it’s the simplistic life they live. The Ingalls’ work hard and live an honest life. It almost makes me wish I lived in their time, in their little town of Walnut Grove. Where little things such as home baked pie brings a smile to a child, when going fishing and picking berries in the wild is just another hobby, and where riding horses in the beautiful meadow is just a way of transportation. There’s so much innocence and splendor found in a little town. Another setting I’m drawn to is the Colorado Mountains. I was reading this book where a family’s backyard is the forest. They can just walk outside and go river rafting or hiking anytime. This just confirms my love for nature, the mountains and its greenery. I wouldn’t mind living in a wood cabin surrounded by mountains or green, flowering meadow. My friends responded with “Ok, when we’re old, I’ll tell my kids to visit their Auntie Charisse who lives in mountain by herself.” Haha! I hope that won’t be the case. It’s not wrong to appreciate God’s creation. It reminds me how vast the mountains are and how insignificant I may seem compared to them. And yet, God loves me so much and is saving my life everyday. Another reminder is God’s provision. How He can supply the birds in the air, the grass in the field, and how much more He would supply all our needs. So we ought to not worry about tomorrow, for it will worry about itself. We all need reminders, especially when difficult circumstances linger around us. I’m glad that even though I’m not living in Walnut Grove or Colorado, I can still appreciate nature God created for us from a distance.
My first shift as a CCE (Clinical Care Extender): it was awesome! Tiring and yet so educational. I’ve interacted with some of the pts (patients) and the nurses, mostly Filipino of course hehe. For a first shift, I’ve done so many things already, including getting lost in the ER and everywhere else naturally. AND I’ve also discovered a faster way getting there…. Awesome! This experience just confirmed my God-inspired passion for nursing. BUT I must say I thought I could handle a twelve hours shift once presented, hmm but I only worked for four and that took all the energy out of me. My insufficient endurance must have drained from working in the afternoon beforehand and battling heat throughout the day. Plus, the entire time I didn’t even get to sit down and absorb everything… Next week, I think I’ll opt for a day off.
So we just moved to our new house in Cerritos, and so far it’s been so great: closer to work, closer to school, and it comes with an awesome pool (that’s yet to be thoroughly clean). I now have my own room (first time in years). AND I also have a tv (never even before in my room) with cable (again, a never-ever-before ever kind of a thing).I stay up so late watching shows! Hehe Unpacking hasn’t been so bad…but it’s ok cuz I can now relax in my new bed with my memory foam mattress (sorry but a never-ever-before again...) Truly, God is continuing to bless my family and I with so much, more than we deserve really. But with everything, of course, comes responsibility… no worries though! I am so much more thankful than worried. I feel like a princess for the first time lol. Moving in Cerritos and knowing the fact that this family is headed only by a single mom…wow that truly is a testament of God’s goodness!
It’s just so refreshing how life can have its beginnings and endings; life would be boring without them. There are just stages in life where certain things must end or begin. How unexpected or painful it may be, we must accept the changes and consider them for good. Oh, how I look forward for what God has in yet in store… there’s so much more that we can never imagine. Let’s not limit Him. Looking back I would have never pictured where and what I am now. I couldn’t have planned or expected something as my life now. BUT one thing though, we should admire the Doer and not the result. To fully trust Him is to be thankful even though our expectations or plans or future will not be sustained. Of course that’s not the case, for His plans are for good welfare and hope. Praise God! If anything I said here was described as “awesome” surely He is far greater than “awesome” or any other word…
